Monday, January 27, 2020

Slowly, slowly

I now understand those who quilt for therapy in a loss or pain. These are busy days and I'm having trouble with focus and that "Be still and know that I am God" thing that is so true but often difficult with a million thoughts and memories crowding into my head. I miss my sister yet cannot believe she is gone. I am sad for me and others in our circle of family and friends as she was such a unique and wonderful person, but happy for her as I know she is with Jesus. Put the memories into the mix and no wonder all I want to do is sleep! But quilting helps.

Here is the progress on Halo Medallion. It looks okay, lots of ruler work, but the best part is the above stew of thoughts seem to settle down when I work on it. Might be that concentration is required, but nothing else does it, for me anyway.

I've had nosebleeds again. Started on the weekend. Had to miss church. Woke up at 4 am bleeding until 6 am. I did all the doctors said. Finally slept at 7 until 10 am and then it started again as soon as I gently touched my face. Remembered an old trick that I heard from a doctor -- slapped the bottom of the foot on the opposite side of the bleeding nostril -- really hard, a couple of times. The bleeding stopped instantly and has been okay since then. It is now 2:30. I want to sleep, but think that is a false signal. I need to quilt... I miss my sister.


Quiltdivajulie said...

Quilting is marvelous therapy. How interesting that the foot slapping had such a positive effect. Please be gentle with yourself - sleep when you need to and quilt when you can. One day at a time.

Elaine Adair said...

Weird solution to nose bleeds, but if it works, go for it. Yes, I understand needing to sleep while in grief. I am talking and talking and talking ... my poor friends! Yesterday I did something "right" and afterwards, felt a page turn. Hope you find the helpful solution to sadness.

Elaine Adair said...

Thinking of you, missing your dear sister. So hard to concentrate, follow thru, get anything done, etc. However, some days you WILL be able. Good and Bad. And I am hoping your own medical issues have been resolved.

Elaine Adair said...

Thank you Elsie, for your recent comment. I remember well, your sister passed, and how sad YOU were/are. Some days I just want to sit and cry and enjoy the pain, and then other days I am functioning well. We all miss our loved ones, don't we?